Archive for April 2014

Self Portraits Wk 37,38,39. NYC Recovery.

Finally, I’m beginning to feel normal.  I’m regaining energy and have spent the past 2.5 weeks traveling to Florida and NYC for a much-needed vacation.  No doctor appointments!!  For the first time in 10 months I am not stressed out trying to work in the studio and manage my health.  I’ve tried to let my mind rest.  Not an easy thing to do.  Although my breasts still hurt and I have to sleep with pillows on either side of me, they are much more comfortable than the expander period.  MUCH better.  I’m still dealing with cording in the arm where we removed the lymph nodes http://www.breastcancer.org/treatment/side_effects/aws and have to wear the compression sleeve and glove. I am improving and have not had problems with lymphedema swelling my hand.  Yippee!!   Although the rest of the project will continue, I will stop posting the self portraits soon.  I will continue to take them weekly, however.  They may be used in the final gallery show or book where all of the self portraits are shown together as one piece (or as a video), and I want at least a full year of images to show the transformation.

Self Portrait Wk 39 NYC

Self Portrait Wk 39 NYC

Self_PortraitWK38 in NYC

Self_PortraitWK38 in NYC

Self_PortraitWK37

Self_PortraitWK37

Self Portraits Wk 34, 35, 36 Post reconstruction

They are starting to look like real boobs!  Pain is decreasing, swelling in hand has gone down, overall much more happy.  Extreme tightness of connective tissue all along left side is getting better.  I can lift my arm now!

SelfPortraitWk36

SelfPortraitWk36

 

SelfPortraitWk36

SelfPortraitWk36

The scars under my breast, in my armpit (lymph nodes) and along my sides (drainage tubes) are healing and becoming lighter. I will report a better image at a later date.  They are actually more visible than this one shows, but much better than I expected them to be.

SelfPortraitWk35- Scars  detail

SelfPortraitWk35- Scars detail

The “curbs” that once came up so high with the expanders in have now fallen and softened with the permanent implants in place.  Thank god!!  Note that when you flex your chest muscles, however, there is still a strange little separation at the top you can see in the detail pic above.  This will not go away, or so I’m told.  Not a big deal and okay with me.

SelfPortraitWk35

SelfPortraitWk35

SelfPortraitWk35

SelfPortraitWk35

I felt like hell in the photos from Wk 24.  See the big bruise on my stomach.  That’s from a shot to shut down my ovaries.  The shot itself did not cause that, but the shot to make it not hurt did.  Done with that one!  It hurt much more than the real injection.

SelfPortraitWk34

SelfPortraitWk34

SelfPortraitWk34

SelfPortraitWk34